Who needs wimmins…

….when I can now enjoy the fresh episodes of Stargate SG-1 and Atlantis? :banana:

I got my tub of Blockbuster popcorn, a nice tall glass of Diet Cola, and the easy chair all geared up and ready to go. Ahhh, a Friday night all to myself. Maybe now I’ll be able to forget about how Uptown Girl strung me along for months and then finally blew me off, the no-good lying backstabbing Babylonian harlot may she choke on her own vomit.

But I’m not upset about it.

I kinda knew deep down that things wouldn’t get very far with her. Not so much because we came from two different worlds, but also because she gave off the vibe of being an emotionally cold, self indulgent woman. If she truly had a kind heart, one that showed a genuine care and concern for others, then why was she working for a law firm that catered only to rich clients? Why wasn’t her heart drawn to helping less fortunate people, victims of wrongdoing who never see justice only because they simply couldn’t afford it? Why didn’t she take time to volunteer for charitable work? Where was that trait I was so earnestly looking for, of a woman who was willing to stretch forth her hand to the poor and needy? She just didn’t have it.

It was clear instead that she enjoyed living the good life. Sipping wine, vacationing to exotic places, tanning on beaches, jacuzzis, massages, and so on, the kind of life she could only sustain by working for an affluent law firm. Yet, I don’t begrudge her for doing these things. I think there’s a time and place for recreation and fun, but I also think there’s a point where your life becomes so hedonistic that it can corrupt your soul. And even though she professed to be a Christian, spirituality to her was something that was summed up in attending church once a week, and nothing more. She was not one I could share deep discussions about my faith with. And this was a maddening mentality I’ve seen repeatedly before which I could never understand. How can people truly expect to placate God by only dedicating a few hours on Sunday to Him, and then completely forget about Him for the rest of the week? Can they honestly believe He is pleased by this display of lukewarm spirituality?

Through my emails I opened my heart up to her, and though she claims to have been touched by it, I knew she really wasn’t. There was no empathy, no concern for my well-being, no genuine interest in how I was dealing with the aggravation and problems I was currently experiencing in my life, even though I was certainly interested in what her daily afflictions might have been. But the thing is, she didn’t have any. Suffering for her was not being able to sip wine on her patio because it rained.

She wasn’t a bad person though. But she wasn’t a good person either. I began to realize all this early on, but I guess I held on anyway, hoping against hope that maybe she would surprise me. Maybe she would indeed have a soft and gentle soul, tuned in to the suffering of others, with a fire inside her that yearned to alleviate their burdens and comfort those that needed comforting. Maybe the apparent coldness she seemed to give off was just borne out of an understandable hesitation to open up to me. Maybe for once, my sixth sense was just wrong here.

Or maybe not.

Now it’s back to enjoying Friday nights all by myself again, with only a tub of popcorn and a teddy bear named Homer to keep me company.

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Categories: Lincoln's Personal Log, Romance and Relationships

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2 Responses to “Who needs wimmins…”

Shari wrote a comment on December 16, 2007 @ 09:35:pm
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Don’t hold on and hope. When you get that feeling that makes you want to try to dig deep and find someone’s “hidden treasures”, that is your cue to cut and run.

I got married to someone I was sure had “potential”, that had been hurt and would need time and love to blossom. Eight years later, I realize I totally duped myself. Now I’m a biblical studies student at a Christian university and meet men every single day who possess the heart for God that I so wanted in my partner.

When you are ready to be married, turn to your Father and ask Him for your wife. Dating is, as you so fittingly put it, for Babylonians. ;-) All kidding aside, may I recommend a book called “I Kissed Dating Goodbye” by Joshua Harris? I had always known there was something wrong with dating, but it is so much a part of our culture, I still went along with it. If I am ever in a position where I need or want a husband again, I will simply ask my Father to find me one. :-) (I know it’s not that simple, but hopefully the gist of it is clear).

Lincoln Adams wrote a comment on December 16, 2007 @ 09:53:pm
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Shari, are you seeing anybody now? Of course you knew I had to ask.

This is a hard thing to endure, but I realize if I want the perfect girl, then I need to learn how to be the perfect guy first. With in reason, of course.

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