2011 was pretty much an amazing year of travel for me. It started with snowmobiling in the mountains of New Hampshire, visiting Portland in Maine, hanging out in Boston, flying to Texas for SXSW, visiting Austin and then Dallas, doing a road trip that spanned Colorado, South Dakota, Wyoming, Idaho and Utah, and finally a few days stay at Los Angeles for BlogWorld, which included a short trip to Simi Valley to visit the Reagan Library.
I’ve also made inroads into learning how to network with tourist bureaus and PR firms to help dramatically reduce the expenses of traveling. While it doesn’t provide a living for me, it at least keeps traveling I do from making any major dent into my finances.
I think 2012 will be the year of self-discovery, and maybe the year I finally start traveling abroad too (though to where God only knows.)
Self-discovery, because I need to take a hard look at what I want to do with my life. I envy people who know what they want, what kind of career they are looking for, and they set out to do whatever it takes to succeed in their goals.
I’m not so lucky. Once upon a time I thought I knew what I wanted. I grew up wanting to be a cop, or more specifically, an investigator, either as a detective for a police department or as an agent for the feds. Law enforcement was where I thought I wanted to be.
But because of my hearing loss, I would never be able to fulfill the physical criteria needed to pursue that career path, so I looked into alternatives, a way to still perform investigative work, only in a civilian capacity. There are jobs like that, such as being a background investigator, or maybe forensic examiner for the FBI, but I could never get a bead on them. I would apply everywhere, go on job interviews, take civil service exams, only to keep spinning my wheels.
Then there was a time that I thought maybe being an attorney would be a good fit for me, where instead of investigating people I would investigate the law. Helping to bring justice wherever I could. But those plans fell through as well.
From there I just sort of drifted through life until I started traveling again, and then realizing how much I really liked to travel, I wondered if maybe somehow, I could combine that with my love for writing and thus pursue a new type of career.
While I enjoyed marginal success with that, there’s still something… missing. Like I’m still a square peg trying to fit into a round hole.
There is an easy solution to all this though: Be rich. That way I could do odd jobs here and there at my leisure (and without pay) until I finally land on something I actually enjoy doing.
I think that’s part of why I travel too. I’m looking for something. Someone?
It sucks because it also impacts my efforts to find true love as well. One thing women HATE, is a man who lacks ambition and doesn’t know what he wants out of life. So not only is my soul searching impacting my career, it’s impacting my chances of ever having a family too.
If 2012 can bring any kind of major life change, I hope it’s the kind of change that will help me discover where I belong, and what I’m truly meant to do.