And here I am once again arriving at another Thanksgiving, alone, empty, and even worse off than last year.  What do I have to be thankful for?  I’m still in a dead end job, I still haven’t found my dream girl, and now thanks to the Obamaton assbots who voted Antichrist-Lite into office, I can look forward to 4 years of misery so awful it will make me yearn for the Jimmy Carter years.

I have nothing to be thankful.  NOTHING.

Well… at least I’ll soon be out of debt though, so I guess there’s that.  And I have a job where I only have to work 4 days a week, so I guess I should be thankful for that too.  And I have a nice car, a laptop, a desktop PC, two digital cameras, a fridge packed with food and a closet filled with clothes, and of course my incredibly designed blog as well.  I also have two loving parents that still haven’t disowned me even when I accidentally set their car on fire.  (And the kitchen too, after a failed baking experiment once.)

Ok, so maybe I do have a few things to be thankful for. 

I guess I should take this time then to at least try and focus on the good things in my life instead of the bad.  And out of all the good that I do have, the one thing I should be thankful for above everything else is having a God who is always watching out for me, even when I accuse Him of the most horrible things.

So thank you Lord for putting up with me, especially when You’re the only one who has the patience to do so.  But who knows, maybe someday You’ll bring a girl into my life who will also have the kind of everlasting patience to put up with me as well. 

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If I were to be perfectly fair, there really is much to be thankful for. I have a roof over my head, food on the table, a stable job, a loving family, and a smokin’ ride.

But I always have a tendency to focus on the negative. I get reminded of all the disappointments of life, all the unanswered prayers, all the times when it feels like God left me here to rot, and I get angry instead. I’m upset that I have to spend yet another Thanksgiving without knowing who the love of my life is, if she even exists. Upset that once I go into work next Monday I may have to gear up for another fight with my union and the department I work for, with no resolution in sight. Upset that my health may never get better, and that I foolishly put myself at risk for life threatening diseases. Upset that no matter how hard I try, my blog doesn’t appear to be getting any traction. Upset that my career prospects are quickly going down the toilet.

So yeah, while there may be some things to be thankful for, there are plenty more reasons for me to remain an ungrateful bastard.

But for whatever reason, I trudge onward with hope. There are times when I really despair, but even in my darkest moments I always dream of a better future. I always hope.

So, if there was one thing I should be thankful to God for above all else, I guess it would be hope. I hope that the present darkness will lead to morning light. I hope that I will someday soon meet my true love. I hope for a better future for both my family and those who remain stedfast in their faith in Christ, even in trying times. I hope for the safety of our troops and their speedy return. I hope peace will continue to reign in the hearts of all my dear friends.

I hope.

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“Every Thanksgiving, over 80 million Americans get together to be with their families…. and wonder why.”

This time of year used to get on my nerves for the longest time. Because I no longer have a social network of family or friends, Thanksgiving would usually find me twiddling my thumbs or climbing the walls out of sheer boredom.

A long time ago, when I used to have a family, we would often get together at my grandfather’s house for a feast of the ages. I remember aunts, uncles, friends of the family, ad infinitum coming from all over to celebrate and toast the occasion.

But I also remembered the arguments too. And the fights. And the screaming. Thanksgiving, instead of being a time of reflection and giving thanks for what we had, instead became a poorly scripted soap opera. There was contention, strife, envying, bitterness and genuine hatred all around.

But then one day, my family went away, and with it all the aggravation and grief that came with it. Thanksgiving, though often a dull occasion for the last few years, was at least a QUIET and PEACEFUL occasion.

Upon reflection, it seems I do have much to be thankful for after all. Thankful for a good job, a warm home, a beautiful car, many material blessings (including my smokin’ sweet laptop), and of course the blessing of no longer having to deal with a family of relatives that brought me nothing but grief and pain.

This year, I’m thankful above all for hope: hope for a better future, the prospects of a new career, and of perhaps finally meeting my one true soulmate (preferably a woman).

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