As each year draws to a close, I find myself losing more and more hope that I’ll ever find my future beloved. She exists only in a dream, her warmth and love such that only a woman can give was something I would never experience in real life. Any experience I’ve had with the opposite sex have instead always resulted in my heart being ripped out and torn to shreds.

But then something happened on Friday that infused me with a renewed sense of hope. It started when I received some white chocolate treats from a coworker, a pretty brunette I once had a major crush on, until she of course fell in love with another coworker and promptly married him a few months later.

“Wow, thanks Karen, these are great!” Then in passing I mentioned that while I liked white chocolate, dark chocolate was actually my favorite.

So she went home and made a fresh new batch of dark chocolate, just for me. I couldn’t believe it.

“Karen, you didn’t have to do this! I was just teasing!”

“It’s ok, I wanted to.”

I was stunned. This act of charity was truly unexpected and something I never thought would come from her.

Later that evening, I checked the latest video of TV Squad Daily, hosted by the stunningly gorgeous Brigitte Dale. I made a somewhat tongue in cheek comment a few days before asking her to sing a Christmas song, and to my complete surprise, she actually answered that request in her next video (beginning 00:34 seconds in):

Too bad she didn’t post my blog address though. Still, it was a much welcome gesture, especially coming from someone who is quickly coming close to taking the same throne once occupied by Jessica Alba. Ok, that’s enough dreaming now, Linc-O.

In any event, these two acts of goodwill went a long way in taking the bite out of what had otherwise been a stingy Christmas season for me. 2007 had been a terrible year, both health wise and spiritual wise. I needed to believe that better times were ahead, and I’ve been holding dearly on to the hope that 2008 will finally be THE year where everything will change, and where the identity of the mystery blonde will finally be revealed.

I still have a long and grueling road ahead of me though, and the outcome is still uncertain. Yet these two beautiful women collectively gave me the best Christmas gift I could ever ask for: hope.

I thank God for this renewed sense of hope and purpose, as it carries me through this Christmas season and into the dawn of a new era.

Yes, I know, it’s been a month since I last blogged. I’m aware of that. No need to keep reminding me. Shut up already.

After such a long hiatus, I’ve come to the realization that I’ve lost my blogging mojo. I have some suspicions about why this is so, but I’m pretty much stumped as to how I can get myself going again, if ever. I used to blog up a storm in times past, but now I just don’t have the passion for it that I used to.

I think part of it is that I’m pretty much all talked out (after having vented for so long on just about everything and everyone). I’ve blogged about my personal life and the traumatic experiences I’ve had in the past, about religion, politics, romance, the legal profession, and whatever else tickled my fancy. Then I just grew tired of it. No matter what I did, any blog entry I made felt flat and boring… like the one I’m writing now.

But rather than give up (because I truly enjoy writing), I’m going to turn over another leaf and try again, this time with a more candid emphasis on my personal life, and perhaps a little dabbling in fiction here and there.

I’ve also cleaned up the blogging backend, dropped a bloated plugin that seemed to slow the load times here, and brightened the text a little bit for easier reading.

So, a new year, a new slate. Let us see what 2007 has in store for us.