I Can’t See Her Anymore
Lincoln Adams | August 19, 2008 @ 2:04 amUgh, I can’t sleep.
See, it used to be whenever I had trouble falling asleep I would think about how I’d meet my dream girl, exploring all the possibilities on how we’d end up together and fall in love. Just holding on to those dreams would put my mind at enough ease that I could finally conk out and get a good night’s rest. It was my own personal way of counting sheep, and I’d been doing it for years and years. No matter what shape or form she took, I could always imagine her easily, beautiful and loving and caring. My hope kept her real, helped me to believe that she was out there, and that it was only time that kept us apart, until such time finally came to an end.
But now I can’t see her anymore.
As hard as I try to imagine, my mind can’t focus enough for her to appear again, and I’m tossing and turning trying to fall asleep, wondering why it’s so hard now to even put a few thoughts together so I can dream about her for just a little while.
If there was ever a solid indication that my dream has finally died though, this would be it. Maybe my mind is finally coming to terms with the reality that I will never, ever meet someone. This world has become too evil, too foregone a conclusion, and I myself am just too different, too detached from humanity for it to even be possible anymore. Maybe if I had been born 50 years ago I might have had a chance. But not today.
My dream really is over. I will never sleep again.
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I was sitting in a Subway restaurant when all of a sudden she just appeared, sitting across from me and holding my hand. I couldn’t see her face too clearly, but she was thin, had long blonde hair, and a beautiful smile. I knew I was dreaming too, which for me is very rare, in fact it may have been the first time I was ever aware that I was in a dream. I could feel myself waking up too, and I held on to her hand desperately, not willing to let her go.
Of course he suggested that I knock it off, go to church and find myself a nice, morally upright Christian girl to be with.







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