What? I was bored.
Got the idea from reading an article that mentioned being able to get fake girlfriends for 5 bucks on Fiverr.com, so rather than get my usual hot chocolate from Starbucks, I decided I was really in the mood for some fake wubsies.
Yeah I got scammed.
Well, semi-scammed. She/He/It did send post a note on my wall, liked up some of my stuff and…. that was it, for like, the next 13 days after that.
I wonder what it says about me as a person when I can’t even get a girl to give me any kind of attention even when I’m PAYING them to give me attention?
You’ll have to forgive me, these days I’m trying to fend off all the perfectly good reasons why I should go take a nap on the train tracks during peak times, so I’m not really in the best of moods here. Especially after spending $120 to get back on Match.com and Christian Mingle for 3 months so I can try to at least get a coffee date with someone, and have now already run through the gamut of all the local girls available without getting a response from any of them.
It’s a depressing feeling, casting such a wide net and still being unable to come across a nice girl who thinks you’re worth getting to know. Feelings I have to bury deep down and put a happy face over, because women do NOT want a guy who is prone to depression (or shorter than 6 feet, or makes less than $100,000, or etc., etc.) Thus my profile is positive and upbeat, my messages are positive and upbeat, and yet… nothing.
I mean, I just want a coffee date, is all. I’m not asking for your hand in marriage or to boinky boinky boink on Friday nights. I’m only asking for a few minutes of sipping coffee together to see if we have some chemistry. I guess I’m just looking for someone to give me a chance.
But after a while, after so many rejections, I start to wonder if the reason nobody will give me a chance is because ultimately, I don’t deserve one.