I just turned down $50 worth of review requests for my site from ReviewMe. I must be smoking something, cuz money is money, ain’t that right honey?

One review request was for a directory I already did a review on, so I’m not sure why they wanted another one, and the last one was for a casino gambling site. That was really a no-brainer though, I mean the idea of getting some coins for writing a review of a gambling site on what’s meant to be a Christian oriented blog just seemed silly to me.

It is getting tiresome though to jump for joy upon getting a review request in my inbox, only to learn that the advertiser making the request deals in casino/poker/viagra/loan consolidation related websites. You’d think these were the only businesses that existed on the Internet. There has to be more out there though. Doesn’t anyone want me to review a suspense novel for them? Or maybe critique a company site specializing in developing simulations for SWAT teams? I mean come on, where are all the REAL businesses for crying out loud? At least offer something that might actually be related to my blog’s theme for once (whatever the hell my theme is supposed to be anyhow).

Eventually I’m gonna have to do some redesigning to fix some of the rendering problems this blog has. The biggest issue is that I can’t keep my footer under all three columns. As long as the middle column is longer than my sidebar, the issue won’t present itself, but since some of my posts can be very short, that isn’t always the case. The end result is that the footer gets snaked under the sidebars, crapping out the whole page. I’ve been able to workaround this issue by removing the sidebars from my single post pages, but eventually I need to find a better solution.

I’ve been looking around for blog design consultants willing to clean up this site, and found one called the Blog Studio. It seems to come highly recommended, so I sent them an email outlining what I’d like done and requested a price quote.

They blew me off.

At first I thought maybe they were really busy, so I gave it another week or so, and then sent them another email.

They blew me off again.

Now that’s just rude. They must think I have no money, or they cater only to the rich crowd of A-list bloggers who can afford to spend serious coins to have their sites redesigned. Snobs. Damned, damned snobs. All I wanted was a price quote or some general idea of what it would cost to fix the coding on my site, and if I didn’t have enough now, I could work up some O.T. and maybe use some Christmas money to get this thing done. But God forbid I should even be given the courtesy of a reply.

Well I certainly wouldn’t recommend them now. Nate Whitehill recently started a blog design business as well, which received major attention ever since he redesigned John Chow’s blog, so I might take a look at one of his packages instead, even though he blew off my last email as well. I’m gonna assume he was busy though. I hope. Maybe…? Please……..? …………………….

Well, I did have a nice six day reprieve from work, but that ends tomorrow (uhh, make that today.) Joy joy, joy joy joy.

Seriously, I don’t think I’ve ever hated my job as much as I do now. An awful boss running us into the ground, an awful coworker whose useless, fat wide load of an ass takes up valuable real estate in our section, a workload that’s spiraling out of control, and colleagues with frayed nerves that makes me wonder if my bullet riddled carcass might soon end up on the news.

I guess it’s no surprise then that I’ve thrown everything into getting this blog off the ground, not only to boost traffic levels, but also to make some serious coins out of it so I can get the holy hell outta here. 7 years I’ve been at this job, with no end in sight. Something’s gotta give.

I really thought I had something going though by deciding to apply for law school, and I can’t believe how it all turned to crap, even in spite of almost two years of praying, seeking, knocking and begging for answers. Instead of being shown the way, I get jerked around by a God who really seems to be doing His darndest best to show me how much He hates my filthy hide.

Fine. Message received. Way to show the world how You take care of your own by screwing them over when they need Your help the most. Sheesh. I don’t know if you’ve noticed or not Lord, but I’m feeling pretty fricking abandoned and betrayed right now.

Ok, calm down Linc…. breathe in… breathe out… serenity now…

To be honest, it really is disconcerting to feel this deep seated rage boil up within me whenever I think about the events of the past few years, from getting evicted out into the streets, to getting stuck in a dead end, soul sucking job, to watching my health deteriorate and my prospects dry up, even while everyone else around me find their true loves, marry up and move on to greener pastures, and here I am, still stuck in first gear, partly because I was stupid enough to believe God had something better prepared for me, and that I need only be patient enough to wait for it. Sure, all fine and good, until I finally realized that only applies to people He actually gives a rip about.

Well ok then, how about this: You hate me, I hate You, so let’s just stay out of each other’s way from now on, and maybe, just maybe, I’ll be able to salvage the remaining pieces of my almost completely destroyed life, mmmmkay?